haiz.. got a headache... and been feeling very lethargic for the past 2 days.. must be cos sleeping very late watching drama and not drinking enough water.
Anyway, exams ended on Tues (21st)... Wed I went out to Hort Park and walked all the way to Mount Faber where the cable cars are (Jewel Box) and then walked to Vivo City... So that was a healthy morning. haha.. then ate lunch with the gang, and later went to Pacific Coffee Company to have my Mocha Brownie and write letters to Emil and Malvin. Met my mum thereafter, went to kaciao my dad at harbourfront, and then shopped the whole afternoon! Bought lots of nice clothes.. haha.
Thurs went for field service, was quite nice to work with a Filipino sister and Punitha (so long din see her) and then evening went to meet Shin Yen they all.. realised internship can really make one change one's looks. Like makeover! Aini looked great. It was nice to catch up, chit chat.. at Hooked (restaurant at rail mall).
Friday had a gathering at my place for the pioneers.. Mum and Aunty Grace cooked lots of food. played some bible games and taboo.. Really enjoyed the association. Just felt very tired.. all thanks to the drama that kept me awake the previous night.
Today went to Uncle Herald's house, met all the relatives... and uncle Herald showed us a video from Korea.. They just came back from a holiday there! So nice! Made me miss Korea again!!!
oh yes.. here's a song I wrote back in secondary school.. suddenly thought of it and went to look for the lyrics. Thankfully Free Open Diary still saved it and my account there was accessible! So here it is.. kinda forgot the tune.. so think it goes something like this:

YOU'RE IN MY EYES

My tears have dried,
crying for endless nights.
I gave up preparing
for my funeral rites.

It's been so long.
Your'e back from the past,
Into my life.
It's just so fast.

*chorus*
You're in my eyes
I'm going blind
You've clouded my view
But I dun mind.

*bridge*
Cos' you you you you are the one!

I almost forgot
till you came back again
and reminded me
Of our times in the rain.

Your photographs
have collected dust
But they're still with me,
it's just a must!

The only way
to see you again
is to hallucinate
like I'm insane!

*bridge*
Cos' you you you you are the one!

*chorus* x2
You're in my eyes
I'm going blind
You've clouded my view
But I dun mind.

*end bridge*
You you you you're in my eyes...

~||~||~||~||~

I hate doing group projects. And I'm starting to doubt if I'm truly a team player.
Or do I just stress people up too much cos I'm a kanchiong spider? Is it wrong to just want an A? To want everything to be as close to perfection?

I sometimes feel like giving up. But the fear remains. What if I let go? And no one else catches it before it falls? Maybe I just need to relax and everything will fall into place.

I am tired. Physically, emotionally, mentally.

I miss Korea.

I want to tell you that I like you. but not in that way. and not in the normal way either. whatever that means.

So today was kinda good. Had a slow morning just lazing in front of the tv and then doing a bit of reading. After which I headed to field service. It was great cos we saw quite like 3 bible studies. =)And the weather was purrrfect! Rainy.. cool.. just like a dream.

Then came home feeling good. Started helping mum with her work. Formatting. The most annoying job in the world. Stared at the laptop screen till my contacts went dry. So got tired and moody. Went to my room to do some reading of 228. But all the technical stuff just switched my mind off.

Decided to go for the bbq party in the end. At first it was slow..but I was happy to see people I like there. People who are not stressed about school like me. And people who are not working on the same projects as me. Took my mind off work for a bit. Ended with Thing-a-ma-bot. Quirky fun.

Then came home. Received sms about doing project tmr. Somehow I feel my groupmate would rather I'm not around when they are doing our project.

Why does our conflict always have to be win-lose? Can't it be a win-win? Or a compromise? Why does me compromising always make u feel like a beggar? I don't understand. Probably never will.

Anyway, I still want to be your groupmate and your friend. Because besides this problem, I really think the rest of our friendship is great. =D And at least we're being more open to each other now. Kudos to friendship!

something intellectual for those who feel like making their brains work for a bit. This guy talks fast! But every sentence he says makes so much sense and is an eye-opener about this new world we are living in. Saw this as part of my 401 module's e-learning week:

This is my favorite Korean song at the moment... Originally sung by 김광석 - 사랑이라는 이유로 (Kim Kwang Seok – Reason of Love/By Virtue of Love)

oh no...i miss them.. and y are they taking so long to reply my email???

i'm going crazy.. haha.. well, at least my unni and little sis and a few others have replied. I am really so happy to have 'adopted' a korean sister and happy to have been adopted by my unni...

Well, Marina Bay Sands was spectacular! Unfortunately, the construction around it hasn't been completed so that was an eyesore... Really gotta bring future Korean visitors to the sky park for the night city view. Beautiful.. but $20 is a bit ex still.

The toilet in the hotel was amazing! I want my dream house toilet to look like that!!! I mean 5 people could use it at the same time and there could still be room for a mini fish tank!

Oh well.. I'm just bored now. Enjoying the holidays, dreading the reopening of school. Wondering why I can't get through YW's phone.. and why SY didn't call back. And why they are not replyinG..

wondering a lot.. it seems.

Just came back from Korea 2 days ago! and just came back from Marina Bay Sands Hotel and Sky Park about 2 hours ago! (will tell u more in the next post)

and now my nose is runny and my eyes are teary... all due to lack of rest i believe.

EWHA has the best environment and facilities ever! Really recommend it to those thinking of choosing a Uni in Korea.

My fav food in Korea is Samgeopsal, ChimTak, Kalgusu and Bulgogi.

I was really homesick to the point of tears during the first few days but thank God for coming to my rescue and providing the loving brothers I met last year..

I really love the brothers and sisters I met in Korea. Made some really good friends and I think our friendships are really special. Considering we clicked so well and came to be so close within a month and it's not like we met up everyday even.

Well, as usual, topic of marriage and me staying in Korea came up a couple of times. It made me really think hard about this aspect of my life.. I really do not feel ready for marriage at all. and I am in a state of limbo. I want my independence and to be able to enjoy singledom, I mean honestly I just can't imagine myself waking up in bed every morning with another person beside me. So weird.
But somehow I yearn for companionship and affection, and I so totally can picture myself cleaning big glass windows with my future partner and cooking together and visiting our families together. It is just so contradictory.

Anyway, Korea was really good... The people hardly sleep! Yet they all look so fresh and pretty! High heels everywhere! And they sell basics (plain tee and the like) at really cheap prices! Nice weather. Loved Pusan although it was rainy. I travelled out of Seoul a lot actually. Went to Everland - took T-Express! Took the KTX (fastest train in Korea).

Well... really tired now.. be sure to catch the photos on FB!

haiz.... everything was PERFECT. Until. me and my silly mistake. I forgot to refrigerate the cheese and biscuit layer for 2 hrs before pouring the raspberry topping all over, And there was what seemed like a whirlpool as all my heart-shaped strawberries which had been sitting in their respective positions got messed up just like a tsunami had come over them.

HAIZ...

so anyway now.. i'm like waiting for it to freeze in the fridge. Impossible I know. Because the freezer is full of meat that my mum bought so there's no space for my dessert to go in there. No choice. And i kinda messed up the whole kitchen thanks to my butter fingers which couldn't balance the tray properly and now my bermudas has a pink spray all over.

Well well... what's been happening to me lately? Yes I'm sorry I haven't had the time to blog. So much has been happening. Was swamped with projects and all alone at home for 2 weeks while the rest of my family was in Tibet and China. Visitors were staying over. And then my grandpa, my tata, passed away due to a stroke at the age of 80. And then exams. And then spring cleaning my cupboard and drawers. And then watching Animal Farm by Wild Rice. And then just watched Chicago - well worth the money. And then attended the funeral of a well-loved aged sister just ytd. And down with what a self-diagnosed stomach flu. Intestines and tummy not feeling too well the past few days. So u see... have been busy busy busy.

Tmr I'm going to start part-time work doing coding of the Asian Journal of Communication of the past 20 years. Hope all goes well then I can gain some insight into what CR entails as well as earn some pocket money for the next 2 weeks.

That's all for now.
*crossing my fingers for a delicious though destroyed dessert*

Today I saw the remake version of 'We are the World' originally written by Michael Jackson and Lionel Ritchie. This time it gathered so many talented artistes in the hope of encouraging the world to give a helping hand to our fellow global citizens in Haiti. I must say I was almost moved to tears as the song stirred my soul and touched my heart. Really well done, genuine and sincere.
It moved me to the extent of going their official website and clicking on the donate button and typing in an amount... until they asked me by which card I was paying. And it hit me. I may have the financial reserves to donate, but I do not have the means to do so. I've never shopped for anything online nor do I have a credit card, or even a debit card. I always thought I didn't need to and it was a form of protection which safeguarded me from unnecessary spending. So I guess one of my goals after my exams this sem is to set up a paypal account, get a debit credit card. I guess that will be a tiny step to my independence as I crawl towards being an adult officially.
Here's the wonderful, amazing clip:

A few updates on what's been happening in my life the last month.

Baby Jude has gone back to his home. Getting chubby but smiling more. =)

I've been accepted into EWHA Womans Uni in S.Korea for Global Summer Studies Program. Most prob clearing all my Unrestricted Electives there. And hooray, can get to meet JK, MH, MN, Big Papa and Big Mama again!! I really miss them...

CNY week was pretty enjoyable. Parents went to Malaysia for a retreat while me and my younger bro got invited for dinners by a lot of warm loving aunties and friends.

Oh and last Sunday I actually watched Backstreet Boys concert! It was a 1 night even at Suntec. I must say the whole layout was pretty cheapskate considering I paid $151 for the tickets. Everyone stood throughout the concert so of course I had to stand on the chair just to get a glimpse of the BB.. They've sorta lost their youth and the energy that comes from it. So a little chubby and not so hyper. But their famous old hits still rocked the house. Something good that came out from it was me and my 2 bros actually sat tgt and my parents on a different side (all thanks to my brother booking extra tix accidentally).. so we siblings had bonding time. Really enjoyed it after a long time of coldness that I was getting from my younger bro. And it was great we took a pic tgt. =)



On a side note, I don't know why I'm documenting this but memories of a person just keep flooding my thoughts every few minutes or so this week. Why am I so pathetic. Mixed feeling of happiness, sadness, nostalgia. Hate it. I'm also trying to figure out why I can think of some people in some ways but not others in the same way. Complicated.

Am also currently stressed with schoolwork and loads of projects.

Some people are just so rude. I can't stand the sight of their moody face. I can't tolerate their violent, abusive behaviour. And I can't stand the fact that they absolutely spare no consideration or thought for anyone else but themselves.

Sad to say, I'm living with such a person.

Spoilt brats who have their parents giving in to them their whole life. So what if they are achieving great accomplishments in school, at work or other aspects of their life?!

Just wait till they get it back. In due time, I believe vengeance will be repaid. The best thing is, it won't come from me.

An interesting finding I read, as talked about in “After the Laughter: Comedians and Depression” by Dr. Amy Alpine, is that comedians, like Jim Carrey and Robbie Williams tend to suffer from depression. For the benefit of everyone, I’ll just sieve out the main points and try to tie it in with what we’re studying.

In line with what the textbook says about communication as identity management, I’m starting to think if bipolar disorder (even if it’s more of an illness) is an extreme version of having 2 faces, in other words – poor identity management. I wonder if these comedians have reinforced their comedic side so much as their public ‘presenting self’ that they can even suffer from bipolar disorder. Or from another point of view, they use comedy to treat their depression. That is to say that putting themselves in a happy frame of mind intentionally (constructing their self-concept) works to make them a happy person (self-fulfilling prophecy).

In addition, the interview with Dr. Alpine mentioned that “a lot of performers are the truest to themselves when they are performing”. Does this mean that their perceived self=presenting self? It certainly seems so. In fact, she mentioned that most comedians don’t want people they know to be at their show because they are more afraid of being judged by their significant others than strangers in the audience.

Personally, I find this quite true, sometimes we open up to complete strangers and tell them our honest feelings about a personal issue precisely because we won’t feel like we’re being judged or that even if they are going to judge us, we don’t really care because they are not a significant other. Hence, our self-concept is not threatened.

Moreover, many people tend to get shocked when they find out that comedians or people they perceive as happy-go-lucky, having fun all the time, actually suffer from depression. This obviously shows that our response is affected when people behave in a way contrary to our perception, proving that communication is collaborative, interactional process.

Well, that’s all for now. =)

I've been wondering why I seem to get up so early nowadays. Could it be the change in temperature? Light? Noise?
I guess all 3 factors... I'm such a light sleeper. Wish I wasn't. Think I need to change the position of my bed because currently, it's right in front of the air-conditioner. So I do get cold after a few hours and I wake up. Even though I have put it to 1-hour timer such that it shuts down after 60 minutes, it still doesn't help much because then, it gets too warm and I wake up again.
Haiz. Such simple things also can give me anxiety.

Anyway, check out this Epworth Sleepiness Test. It's a great scale to check out whether you are getting sufficient sleep.

I scored 5 out of 24 so I'm getting enough sleep. Guess I don't have much to worry about then! =D

Oh, I went to the gynae with my sis-in-law the other day and I saw my nephew!!! I saw his ear, his nose, his rib cage and his femur! He's so big now. Head circumference about 30 cm. D-Day should be arriving soon!

Dear Diary,

I've been neglecting to seek comfort in you these past few weeks for a number of reasons:

1. Busy with exams... Thankfully they're over.
2. Busy with my Christian Ministry - a great source os distraction from the anxieties of this system of things.
3. Busy with my own family issues.

Yes, I've come to realise that fractured families in today's world is becoming ever more common. Marriage rates are decreasing while divorce rates are on the rise. Love is in such a pitiable state, treated as transitory, valueless and unappreciated. Used ever so often, it's begun to lose its true meaning.

I've also started to wonder if love can really last in a marriage. I'm sure it can with God in the picture. But for 2 people in a marriage to really rely on God and apply the practical counsel He provides in the Bible is pretty difficult, especially if 1 has a different faith. Recently, I've been hearing all these stories about men being unfaithful. I think that's the reason why my ideal dream of marriage full of love that lasts to time indefinite is fading. I don't want this perfect picture to corrode. But how do I stop it?

Sometimes, the people you trust the most and look up to the most are the people who can disappoint you. Not only disappoint you but affect your viewpoints on certain life issues for the rest of your lives.

Okay, enough of all this serious talk.

My sis-in-law is due end of this month and soon, my handsome nephew: Jude Ashley will see the light of this world.

Talking about delivering.... I honestly am astounded at how some women can be ignorant of their pregnancy! This Chilean weightlifter actually gave birth during her practice! I really feel sorry for the poor child. Born 3 months premature, it's definitely going to affect his health and development. It seems to me that people nowadays are just too caught up with this roller coaster system of things to understand what really is important in their lives. Priorities are in all the wrong places.

Is your relationship a square, circle or triangle?

Just wondering...

out of the 3 basic shapes, which would your relationship fit into?

According to The Basic Elements of Visual Communication,

Square: dullness, honesty, straightness, workman-like
I guess this is usually what happens to a relationship as the passion and fire of love gets eroded by the passage of time. Just learnt from my favorite aunties that it takes effort to keep the romance alive. Dullness is what happens when the relationship reaches a plateau and tapers off. I'll definitely keep this in mind. Although there isn't any conflict, but you know what they say, lack of conflict is not a very good thing either.
Circle: endlessness, warmth, protection
Ahh... the most secure feeling on earth, the ring - a symbol of neverending love and devotion. Now you know the meaning behind putting that on someone's finger. Better make sure you're prepared to provide the warmth and protection for the rest of your life!
Triangle: action, conflict, tension
The most favorite in all dramas - conflicts and the typical love triangle. Interesting, spicy but not very healthy...

just my thoughts for today. =)

Our 1-minute video assignment for COM 206 is now on Youtube!
Title: Take My Heart Com 206

Yay...

OMG. Someone just guessed my age to be 12!!!

I don't know whether to be happy or sad.

I actually think I'm amused.

What really comes to people's minds when they try to guess a person's age, I wonder. Does behavior matter? Appearance? Speech? Well, I guess, I don't really behave like I'm 20. I can be quite childish at times (in a good way, I prefer to believe). But when it comes to making big decisions, I've been told I'm mature beyond my years. All thanks to the wisdom provided me through God's Word. As for speech and other mannerisms, in a way I'm like my mother, still young at heart.
What about appearance? Hmm... interesting. Check out this website on How to Guess Ages More Accurately. I guess people always guess me younger because of my height. Petite people tend to look younger. Good thing but I hope I don't look short and fat when the love handles grow with age... Oh and my hair - wavy and natural messiness - makes me look younger compared to auntie curls or sophisticated straight hair. Ethnicity also plays a part. Since I'm rather tan and dark, age is camouflaged pretty well.
What about lifestyle clues? I can say I don't use very much slang of my generation and I have friends spanning the ages of 10 all the way to 80. So it would be kinda difficult to estimate my age from the people I'm surrounded by.

Any o how, I'm just grateful that I'm alive, whatever my age.

This week has been a really tiring, depressing, emotional week.
206 filming has not only hit so many dead-ends and had to make a u-turn, but conflicts and tension have abounded between friends and groupmates. I'm getting quite sick and tired of it. Also starting to hate myself for not being able to control my tone of words. Besides, IMM playground seriously has tons of mozzies... they had a feast sucking the life outta me.
Oh, and another first: got pulled down to the fire command centre (FCC) of IMM by the security guard and ordered to stop filming. And got escorted back to the playground to ensure that we packed up and left. At least the guard was quite nice. He was just doing his job but the upper mgmt.. hmm.. no comments. Starting to think rules and protocols and all the red tape put in place just takes precious time away from our lives when we could all be using that time to do more productive and meaningful things.

Today, I just had to get my mind off school and stress. So I went to catch the movie "My Sister's Keeper". I tell you... I think it's the 1st time I spent an entire hour (like really), crying. Warning: The movie's not just a tearjerker; it's literally a sobbing activator. My whole new pack of tissue was used up by the end of the movie. And I was having such a hard time breathing cos my nose was blocked part of the time and trying not to make so much sound with all the sobbing and blowing of nose. Especially since the show was one of those kinds which is slow-moving and sad and silent, one could even hear a pin-drop, not to mention all my weird sounds from my sobbing and runny/blocked nose.
I tell you I will never again watch such a heartwrenching movie at the cinema. It's just such a chore. At least if I watched it at home, I could make all the sounds I wanted and not disturb anyone. When I left the theatre, this whole group of guy standing outside the restroom were like staring at me... must have been thinking why my eyes and nose are so red and swollen. Embarrassing... Then, all the way home in the car, my eyes were like stinging dry and pain after all the tears had been emptied. Didn't know watching a movie could be such an interesting experience for my body.
One benefit's for sure:
Watching a sorrowful movie that makes you cry is certainly a great release.

Haiz... suddenly feeling very weird and nostalgic.. not that i have many memories to think about actually... just the feeling of nostalgia. Please skip this post if u're tired of hearing emo stuff. Originally this blog wasn't set up to pour out my whines.. but I guess once in a while it can be forgiven. =)

First things first, today was a wonderful day except I feel a little guilty for not practicing my piano for at least an hour. Got distracted after playing for just 10 mins or so... And I din do much studying or assignments too. That's because today was Roy and Christine's wedding! The 2 people in the world I truly believe are 100% compatible. Each of them a gift from God to the other. Yeap. And I myself felt quite good and pretty after doing up my hair at the hairdresser in Bukit TImah Shopping Centre. My 1st time there actually and I thought it would be a disaster but it turned out better than expected! And I wore a maroon 'langa' Indian outfit today. It was originally purchased for my brother's wedding 3 years ago but I didn't wear it for his big day in the end. So today was my 1st time wearing it too. Not bad.. Everyone said it was pretty. =)

Haha.. just realised that I started this post really emo-like but so far it's been on quite a happy note. Well, the big day was great.. the performance by the choir was touching, the children - enjoyable, the friends - wonderful. It's just so great to know that we have so many loving brothers and sisters that can really be our true friends, who go all out to make this wedding a success.

Yup. So anyway, came home and started looking for pens. Recently, all my pens have ended their life span. So it's been quite annoying. Will have to make a trip down to Popular to load up on my ammunition. ( The pen is mightier than the sword) hehe.. Ok lame.

So while I was ransacking my drawers, I saw the 2 white feather pens that he gave me. Surprisingly, the ink still runs. Naturally, I thought of stuff.. and then I turned on my computer to check my e-mail. Who knows... I received a message from FB. Apparently, he sent a msg telling me not to put my hp no. on my wall besides saying hi. Hmm.. u know it's always funny how when you think of something, or someone, then somehow u will keep encountering those things/people in that period of your life (like pregnant women beginning of this year when I was doing a project topic on pregnancy and my sister-in-law got pregnant after that; then matchmaking and marriages too...it's just so weird.. wonder if there's some theory to explain this phenomenon).

Anyway, he must think I'm desperate. Haiz. I forgot to delete the no. but I did ask N to tell me once he had noted it so we could organise our class gathering more easily. Anyway, I should be happy for the both of them and look forward. After all, God will reward me (just as he did R&C) as long as I persevere and concentrate on the more important things.

"that you may make sure of the more important things, so that you may be flawless and not be stumbling others up to the day of Christ," - Philippians 1:10

This seems to be the season for weddings. And it seems that I have the potential to be a wedding helper. Just last Saturday, I was privileged to help out in K&M's big day; first, as a chauffeur for the helpers to and fro and second, as some sort of bridal assistant, trailing behind the bride to carry her gown, collecting ang pao on her behalf, trying to give her encouragement and calm her nerves, etc. I must say it's very tiring but rewarding.

Right after K&M's big day, I was invited to be involved in R&C's upcoming wedding. Just came home from the briefing, in fact. This time, I'm supposed to be the chauffeur for the helpers again, also arranging of the tables and chairs at Fort Canning, and finally the receptionist. I feel so honored to be helping out yet I wonder if I'll be able to cope with not getting enough rest these past few weeks. Been feeling very tired. Not that I've been studying very much, just accumulated lack of sleep from staying up late I guess. Anyway, all the weddings have been giving me stuff to think about if I ever do get married...

1. I think I prefer Buffet style.
2. Maybe somewhere either really classy or a simple romantic evening outside in tune with nature under big tents or something.
3. Have both families look at the guest list and table seating arrangement in advance.
4. I think a bride should get enough rest so earliest she should wake up (if she can sleep at all) should be 8am.
5. Dinner should be early so it won't end later than 10pm.
6. Treat all helpers and thank them sincerely through cards or some other means.
7. Don't invite people I don't like.
8. If need be, have 2 dinners, one for people I really like, with performances, dance and songs; another for people who need to be invited for formality's sake like relatives who are not so close.
   
9. Do away with the groom coming to pick the bride up and then going to the wedding venue. It's just too troublesome and I don't see the need for it.
10. Have a reliable bridesmaid, a responsible Director of feast and a trustworthy best man.
11. Have fun during the wedding! After all, it's your big day! You should be happy and not let anyone else spoil it for you.

Yup. I guess that's all for now. Anyway, there's still a long road ahead till I meet THE ONE. Haha... Back to watching K-drama! Tata!

Do you know what's the meaning of Bossa Nova?

According to Wiki, it comes from the Portuguese word meaning 'new trend'. Ok, before I go on rambling about trends and innovations, I better warn you that I'm really sleepy and drowsy (must be the food I ate at Shah Jahan Indian resetaurant just now..). Yeah, so the only reason why I'm writing this is because I'm bored of studying, trying to keep my eyes open and stimulate my brain cells to think instead of dozing off.

I've got 3 mid-terms next week and this week has just been full of activity. Not necessarily activity in the sense of 'action' but more of emotional activity? I don't know. Well, I'm really happy that a few Korean brothers and sisters actually sent me e-mails. I wrote to Min-ho and Bo-hua but they still haven't replied. =( Only Jongkeun did. Anyway, V's also out.

Back to innovations and new trends... let's see... any idea what's the latest trend this year? Well, for outgoing techies, according to Trendhunter magazine, a useful must-have especially in times of emergencies would be the hand-crank cell phone charger. That would be good hand-exercise.. wonder if they could invent one that can crank off the fats accumulating around my waist. hmm.. okay... going off tangent..

Applying the Diffusion of Innovations theory, I have the feeling that this innovation will probably never reach critical mass, and thus never take off. I, for one, will not spend money on a hand-crank cell phone charger mainly for 2 reasons:

1. I'm not a camper and will most likely not be staying outdoors for more than 2 nights. Hence, my hp is not likely to fail me because I will ensure it is fully charged before I go to camp.
2. As the product hasn't even been released in Singapore according to my knowledge, I doubt I will see it anytime soon due to poor market demand for such items in Singapore which is a technological society that isn't very outgoing. And who on earth would want to carry an extra weight around just to charge the phone for like 5 extra minutes? In the first place, I wonder how long it takes the person to crank the phone in order for it to be charged enough to make a decent call.

Okie, I think I better stop talking nonsense and prepare for meet. Supposed to be playing badminton with my dad now but he's sleeping and I'm too tired to wake him up. There goes the exercise I've been waiting for for 4 months...

Seoul World Cup Stadium was just brimming with more than 50 000 people from all over the world. This united brotherhood just overwhelmed me with indescribable feelings.

Our elderly hosts actually gave up their bedroom for us. This is the special stonebed which is good for the bones of older people. That's why mum said she was surprised she didn't get backache at all for the 5 days we stayed there. The bed also has a heater! The 2 roses on the bed were given to us by the welcoming party at the airport. =)
'Angelic' voices of the sisterly chorus. They sang in so many different languages and those in the front row even sang with sign language!

Wow... it's been quite some time since I've expressed my thoughts on blogger. Academia really takes away 'me' time. No wonder people go mad with the lack of opportunities to vent their stress and engage in self-expression. The outlets are there but the chance to use those outlets are almost negligible.

Anyway, some quick updates. I've decided to drop the URECA project. Bee was trying to convince me like a mother of how it would be a really good thing to have under my belt, especially if I were to pursue post-grad studies and get a scholarship. Yes, I know that it's an opportunity that I should cherish, especially since it's only given to 5% of the school, according to her. But, my piano teacher just told me that I should really register for grade 8 piano exam which will be in the ocming Feb/March. I really want to pass this time, which means I need to devote on average at least 10 hours to practicing my piano each week. Honestly, I've never done that for the past 5 years, hence my failure for the past 2 exams. But I really want to get it over and done with. Weighing piano, URECA and spiritual progress... without a doubt, Jesus said to seek the kingdom first (Matthew 6:33) so I need to put spirituality as my top priority. Then, comparing URECA and piano, I'm thinking I've more or less decided, especially after the Korea trip, that I'm not going to pursue post-grad. Instead, I want to look for a job that I'm happy with and will be able to support my pioneering in the future. Yup, that's my goal. So, at least if I had my piano cert, that would help me get a job that is rather flexible in case I can't find other jobs outside. It's a skill I'm acquiring. This makes me lament the fact that there are hardly any vocational schools in Singapore.

Oh well, I did not start this post with the intent of talking about URECA. I actually wanted to share the many wonderful experiences I had in Korea for the past 2 weeks and the warm, friendly, hospitable people that I met. I shall talk about that in the next post then. But to keep you interested, here are some pictures:

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This week's been filled with Communication Theories and History classes. Not to mention meeting with professors to discuss potential research projects I can take up for URECA. It's a real privilege that I've been given this opportunity but I'm just quite concerned with the fact that I'll have to put in an additional 10 hrs a week on average. I guess Bee hardly gave ma a choice. Or rather, she made the decision for me by handing me notes to read and a thick book on Bilingualism to familiarise myself with the topic. I kind of feel obligated because of the high expectations she has of me and I don't want to disappoint her.

This really makes me reflect on myself though. Just like what Jemin said, I'm always leaving the major decisions in my life to be made by others. Haiz. I'm such a people-pleaser, and I feel as if my human identity has been reduced just by that thought of my inability to make decisions of my own.

Anyway, thought I'd discuss something about the first written texts. The first texts were religious texts and they were hand-copied by monks in monasteries. When one ponders about it, the significance is really great. It just goes to show how sacred, how important religion was to people in the past. Spirituality was often the top priority. And, we really owe it indirectly to religion that people have literacy today. It's all because people in the past placed such a great value on spiritual things that they so very much wanted to read the Bible and other religious texts. Hence, Gutenberg's Bible sold like hot cakes and it motivated him to continue printing other types of books. This hunger for knowledge is a human attribute. It is what drives the education system today. It is what the greatest research institutes of our time are built on.

One historian well noted: “Intellectual pleasures give only a brief satisfaction, unless directed to a practical end. . . . Never should we stimulate the intellect merely to feed upon itself. Unless intellectual culture is directed to what is useful, especially to the necessities or improvement of others, it is a delusion and a snare.”—Beacon Lights of History, Lord, Vol. 5, p. 299.

Really, I can't help but agree with the forementioned statement. Many a times, I study and study and then pause to wonder why on earth am I studying os hard? How practical is the knowledge I'm gaining from my education? Does it really help me lead a meaningful life? Often, the answer is no. Thank God I have with me the oldest book of all time (and the very first that was printed too) - The Bible. In it contains the most valuable truths one could find - The truth that leads to everlasting life - John 17:3.

“If you keep seeking for it as for silver, and as for hid treasures you keep searching for it, in that case you will understand the fear of Jehovah, and you will find the very knowledge of God.”—Proverbs 2:4, 5.

The knowledge of God... how seemingly unreachable... how easily obtained.

The past week has been super hectic, having seen the doctor 3X for the irritating itch that I've been having since I came back from Malacca. Initially, I got a scabies scare but lucky, that's been tested negative. Seems my skin is just so sensitive that I was allergic to some insect bites in the dirty Hotel room. That's what you get for being on a budget trip.

The weekend has been relatively relaxing and tiring. Parents have gone to KL for a wedding. They'll only be back tonight. So I managed to do a little bit of practice on my piano, some reading, saw a bible study and got half of my packing for Korea done. Being a girl sometimes can be quite troublesome, albeit the interesting parts of life, when it comes to dressing... Can't believe I spent more than an hour trying on clothes in front of the mirror. Well, actually I can. That's what girls do! Haha..

Oh yea, I was a good girl today...actually mopped the house. I tell you - having a dog really teaches one to be responsible. So I guess, next time when I have kids, I''ll learn as much from them or just by having them as they will from me. Or even before that, when I take care of my soon-to-be-born nephew!

A first in my life this weekend: Ordering Home Delivery from Sarpinos.
One tip: their pizzas are way better than their pastas.
And a wonderful sales technique I just realised: they actually require a minimum order of $20 for home delivery. Which is great for their business but doesn't that kind of discriminate against singles? I mean if I wanted to eat by myself since I was alone at home, then why would I need to order so much? Making Maggi Mee would be so much more cost-effective. But then again, that just has associations with a pathetic loner and it's such a cliche solution. At least, eating alone at home wouldn't be so bad if I had a feast, it has the ability to lift up my mood.

Walking into school this first week of a new semester felt like the floodgates of the heavens just opened, drenching me in a tsunami of workload. Besides that, I'm starting to stres over missing weeks 3 &4 of school when I visit Korea for a Christian Convention.

Anyway, to get my engines started (especially since edveNTUre won't let me post.. stupid technology), I'm going to discuss a few thoughts on Media Effects today. Yeap, not surprised, it's COM256, this module I'm taking. Plus lots of new fanciful jargon that the communication discipline has introduced to me.

For one, Hagiography. This brings to mind, besides Wilbur Schramm and today's communication history class, Michael Jackson. Way more interesting character, huh? Honestly, I can say I am quite a fan of his because I admire & respect his talent, sympathise with his plight and numerous accusations by others, as well as feel touched by his meaningful songs and childlike innocence of Never Neverland. Ok, I'm digressing.

The point is the media (TV/Radio/News/Internet/New Media, etc) has actually engaged in the practice of Hagiography after his death. They have not only re-conferred Royalty upon him, as the title King of Pop clearly shows, but also shone the limelight on him for a considerable period of time. ALL types of media, literally, have not neglected covering at least a teeny aspect of Michael Jackson, his death and his life. So far, it seems that he has left behind a legacy to be continued and passed down for generations by the media. This makes me wonder - leaving behind a legacy would be next to impossible if not for communication, if not for media. This halo effect, as the Evolutionary Psychology discusses, just goes to show how media has the power to skew the image of a person to 1 end of a spectrum, almost for eternity. This ties in with History, a subject that if not cautious, could easily slide down the slippery slope of hagiography, saying nothing wrong about a person.

And for the first time this year, I think that the international masses actually wanted the media to cover a specific news story - the death of Michael Jackson, to shed light on his life story. This time, I think it quite safe to say, that the people got more out of media than they usually do - it was more of using media as a tool to communicate to the advantage of the public, than of newsmakers using media as a money-making machine (of course, they did make a substantial sum by cashing in on the opportunity to feed the appetite of the people). As David Hinckley, Daily News TV critic reports, " It does remind us, though, that networks can't ignore News Viewers Actually Watch. It also underscores the impact of stories that generate a passionate emotional investment. "

Haiz. I was initially going to write a wonderful, happy, uplifting post after 3 days in Malacca attending a spiritual banquet - Keep on the Watch. Was also going to tell you all about my delicious Nyonya Asam Laksa and Chendol that I slurped down at Jonker Street amidst the crowd and haze.

Unfortunately, returning back to Singapore was equivalent to jumping into a pool of workload and upcoming stress. I can't believe the notes and readings for tomorrow's lectures are already up. Just 1 module's readings for tomorrow have used up more than 20 sheets of my printing paper. How is global warming ever going to end with the amount of paper we print each day in the name of Education, I wonder.

Oh well, I guess I'll just share a bit of the spiritual food with my audience today. To be frank, I'm hoping this review daily will be able to remind me of spiritual things so I do not get pulled into the whirlpool of school and this system.

"Keep your senses, be watchful. Your adversary, the Devil, walks about like a roaring lion, seeking to devour someone." - 1 Peter 5:8

So the word devour as used in the Greek scriptures actually has the meaning of to swallow down. The Devil really wants to swallow us down, to break our integrity to God. To do that, he makes our faith weak, soft, soluble so it's easy to devour us. In order to avoid being a victim, I really need to maintain strong and solid faith. Hope I will be able to continue keeping my faith strong even with the upcoming stress and schoolwork. After all, it concerns my life and future, much more than school.

Today was a hmm... how do I describe it... normal day? Well, more or less, except for a few unusual incidents.

Firstly, I wore a cap when I went out today! Haha.. it's the cap I got from Alaska. The short kind. Finally I found a type of cap that suits me. Most hats/caps don't, you see.

My cousin just asked me to help him find 100 girls to work at the upcoming F1 Event. And, I don't know why, but even though he said I won't be getting anything (apparently, he's not either since he asked me to fwd the contacts and e-mails to some Caucasian), I actually got excited and have advertised on FB, even sent an e-mail to my Prof to fwd to the rest of the CS population in NTU. I must be nuts, doing such things for free.

Seriously hope that they will appreciate my help and give me some benefits. Well, he did ask me to also work. I would if I didn't have to wear a mini-skirt/shorts and stand in the sun for 13 hours. I mean the pay is good, $15 an hour! And the experience, must be great. But, I'm selling clothes, for goodness sake. Not selling myself. Although people do say that a good salesman sells himself, his image. Well, that would be easy for me... but why can't I just wear jeans? Jeans can look sexy too!

And now, I have to even reply all the e-mails I'm getting, and queries too. I guess the only benefit is I get to see pictures of those who apply.. haha... I'm sure Daniel would love that. He loves commenting on photos, right Daniel?


Anyways, here are some pics of my 2nd cousin!

FINALLY!

Handphone pics have been uploaded to my Toshiba Portege Laptop...

I was never an ardent fan of technology but these past 2 days have just cemented my belief that Technology is not only tedious and troublesome, but also time-consuming ( yes, it is. Especially when they don't come with user-friendly manuals; so much for efficiency and convenience) and tiring (after losing my precious sleep and energy on trying to figure out technology). All the associations with technology start with "T"! Even Toshiba!

LG PC Suite is just abundant with problems and hiccups. Tried for hours to get my phone connected to my PC so I could upload pictures but it was only successful on the 1st attempt. After that, even advice from other LG Users from the internet just didn't seem to work. Uninstalling, re-installing, plugging in, plugging out... it's a miracle I didn't give up.

Well, at least I didn't give up on my ultimate goal - which was to upload pictures onto my laptop. So trying to be flexible, I tried out different means and decided on using the bluetooth connection. Even that didn't work for at least 2 hours. Toshiba Portege laptop (a Satellite model) is quite complicated when it comes to setting up bluetooth connection. Just Google the issue and you'll see the number of forums and questions that consumers of this Satellite model have raised.


This is the 1st picture I took to upload onto my computer for the 'trial run': the Toshiba laptop... they should thank me for advertising for them even after the trouble they made me go through.

Ok, I will upload more tomorrow. Just packed my luggage for Malaysia. Pretty exhausted and late now, gotta turn in. Sweet dreams~

Oh dear, it seems that the latest news I've been reading has got to do very much with teens. And they're not all that good either.

The first one I read reported by BBC was about how social networking sites (SNS) actually threaten community life - according to the Archbishop. Well, I've got agree to a certain extent that facebook, friendster, myspace... they're really all about the superficial. More often than not, people add friends just to widen their social circle. It's not how deep the relationship runs; it's about how wide the pool of so-called friends are, some of them whom you've never even met in real life before.

Of course there are those who say they have no intention of adding people they do not know as friends. But really, who can tell? Intention is one thing; temptation and curiosity, a totally different story. Up till now, I've ignored people I do not know a couple of times. Yet, there are times when I've accepted people who are friends of friends just for harmless fun. And later, discovered that I actually know them, not as a friend, but an acquaintance. From there, our lives are intertwined once again and a friendship begins. So, sometimes the story does have a happy ending.

Not brushing the risks under the carpet, we have to take note that whatever we put up, pictures and what not, will be accessible to many who are not even our friends. Sometimes I wonder how tight the security of Facebook actually is... for a simple computer noob like me, it would suffice. But what about a computer geek, IT intelletual, or worse, a cyberstalker and hacker? Technology is ever-evolving. What's the frequency of security updates on these SNS, I question.

In fact, recently, my elder brother added me on Facebook. And he's going to be a father now. (By the way, it's confirmed: I'm getting a nephew!!!) Imagine him playing Happy Farm or whatever childish application on FB.. haiz, I give up, my poor nephew's future is at stake. Then, even more recently, my mum added me on FB. If that's not enough, my dad too! Oh man! I suddenly feel as if my personal space has been intruded. It's not like I'm doing anything wrong or playing any silly games or posting erotic pictures of myself. But somehow, I always felt like FB was a youngster thing (even though I know teachers use them and old ladies too), a secret world of my own, and my friends. This just goes to show that despite the knowledge that such sites are available to anyone with internet access, regardless of age, most of us still go ahead and take the risks of putting up information of ourselves.

Children, take note, our parents are no longer old-fashioned and outdated as we think they are. They are very much as hip and trendy as the boy with headphones who's playing PS beside you on the MRT.