I've been feeling so depressed and emotional lately. Embarrassed too at my imperfect flesh, at my weakness, at my inability to control my own body. And it just dawned upon me that most negative words have the letters d, e and s. Hmm.. and actually that kinda makes up the word 'sad'.

I think I need to see a doctor. But it's just so troublesome to look for a specialist, to make the appointment, to go through the check-up's and scans... only to find out what I'm afraid of finding. But still, I need to do it soon before my condition gets worse and before I lose total confidence in myself.

I'm just so glad that I have God with me. Sometimes, I feel so alone, so helpless. I wonder how atheists actually survive through the 'downs' in their lives, denying the existence of a Creator who cares about us. I feel so sad for them. I pity them. The hopeless, meaningless life they must be leading, which makes me all the more thankful that I've come to know God and he's been there for me. Always have, always will.

In fact, today's day's text really echoed my thoughts, to the extent that I actually choked up tears of comfort and joy, knowing that I have received spiritual food at the proper time. Genesis 27:46 - "...I have come to abhor this life of mine..." The encouragement that followed really gave me the God-given strength and courage to cope with depressing situations.

You know, sometimes I wish that God could just hug me in his arms... and maybe he does, by means of an angel. Just as how the angels ministered to Jesus and comforted him, I'm sure He has sent his angels to comfort me in my times of distress. I pray that He will never ever forsake me, just as He has promised.